Talk about blind sided

Yesterday I didn't go to work, my eyes were swollen, I had a rash across my neck and I had the worse headache. I felt bad after I called in sick because the person answering the other line gave me a guilt trip. I really thought that today was going to be my last day and work. I went in, put my belongings down and started working. All morning I was waiting to get called in to have a discussion about missing yesterday and BAM! The person who I was afraid to talk to and even scared to look her way ends up being the one to get let go. What a shocker today was...I'm still speechless! Now people who use to be friends are going back and forth talking crap to each other...so unnecessary!!!!!

Heart of Glass

I'm not quite sure why I keep putting myself through the same heartbreak. I know the outcome, I know what my head says, but my heart...that damn heart of mine makes everything feel like it can all get better. I don't know what to feel, I don't know how to react. I just don't want to hurt anymore. I have nothing left to give, I feel like I've given it all. At some point you forget what your fighting for and debate if it's still worth fighting. I want to just give up, why can't I just give up. I want to be done with it all, but that heart of glass that I have, it's been broken to many times, I don't remember what it feels like to have it fully back to one piece. One sweet day...

It’s just another Manic Monday

Well so I ended up waking up 10 minutes later then I expected this morning. After a night of restless sleep that extra 10 minutes seemed well worth it. I hauled my butt as quickly as I could to get to Starbucks because running on an hour and a half of sleep requires A LOT of caffeine. I ended up being 5 minutes late for work anyway, but it’s not like it mattered because my internet on my computer was down for 40 minutes!  My head was about ready to explode, to many chiefs and not enough Indians. I feel like my job is driving me crazy, causing all kinds of stress issues. I don’t understand why it is so difficult to manage. I’m going nuts over here and lack of sleep has me all over the place. Somebody help me!

Doing what we do Lake Balboa style

Early Bird

Seriously who ever thought it was a great idea to start a morning work shift before 10 am, I mean come on, how the hell do you expect a night owl like myself to be the early bird. The saying the early bird catches the worm, well I don't really care about catching the worm, I don't even like to eat breakfast, I don't mind waiting for dinner. Now I find myself at 12:30 in the morning no where close to feeling tired or sleepy and I have to wake up at 6 am. Well heres to a restless night and a long work day in the morning. Happy Monday! Oh and the VMA's rocked! I love you Lady Gaga and I can't forget about Britney Spears!!!! Who run the world GIRLS, GIRLS! Beyonce is PREGGO OMFG! It's a H to the IZZO V to the IZZA baby! Jammers over and out!

It's my first BLOG!

Well here I go, I told myself that I didn't want to create a blog. No Jackie you won't even keep it updated, but honestly I'm to opinionated to not let what I want said be heard...so here is to giving in...WELCOME TO MY BLOG! Enjoy!